No Fun GIRL

hi blogie,
hows you?
surprised to see me after so long?
you must be thinking i am busy in my happy-sad life making the most of it?
well yes kind of....!! but its a more of sad-happy-sad-terrible-happy-sad-OK-fine kind of life.
one of my friend asked me about blog so i came back to you trying to restore myself as nothing makes me feel better. NOTHING.
Do you know whats wrong with me ?
Why life is so messed up.when things will get smooth?
this fucking diseased body is winning over my soul....i am not this...i don't want to be this.
stress,anxiety,depression comes along and i have snapped on people i love the most many times and then i am left with an empty feeling.
Not understanding that they can't do anything about my situation.
Everyone is struggling with some unwanted feelings in their life and i have my own.
Now comparing myself to others will be a foolish thing but that's what i do at times.
don't know when i will accept that i am different in this same-same world and this world will accept me the way i am.

A Boring,No FUN girl.............!!

but i love to see my loved ones smiling.

happy,making fun of each other...laughing,mocking.Fighting,caring...

burying the stress of life under witty lines and rejuvenating thyself.

because this life has to go on....and on...!

But I Want a Stop

That whatsapp message.

Someone sent me a message to put a candle as my whatsapp DP.
To show grief for those innocent souls who died in terrorist attack.
Those kids are dead now... my heart goes out when i even think about the scenario of those mothers whose children went to school and never came back.
What can i do for them ? To make a diffrence.
Their families are in pakistan...all i can do is pray.

But if my prayers were powerful it wouldn't have ever happend.

GOD watches I Know..!
GOD let it happen;Why? I don't Know..!

Destiny ? Fate? Terrorists? What took those children away i don't know.
They are gone,
There is no coming back,
There are not even visiting hours in heaven,
There souls are in some another world.

What i seee is there are few another children dying outside.some without food,some without shelter and some without clothes in this chilly winter.

They are kids too;may be not from some army school.

They are away from their home too;may be they don't have one.

They miss their mother too;may be because god took her away already
.

Why not do something for them? Before we see some news channel flashing news-3 kids died due to cold weather in north.

Putting a candle as whatsapp dp ?
It doesn't make any sense to me at all..!

Whatsapp is limited to androids only i guess...
However an old blanket from ur store room might save someone.

Where a simple act of kindness can make a huge diffrence ;people are still after these whatsapp show offs to make theirselves feel content about what happened,that they are sad too for their neighbours

Humanity is no more left ...so does ..common sense.

lonely but not alone..!

Its so important to prepare yourself for loneliness. As sometimes you feel lonely because you are alone, and this situation is still okay. But when you feel lonely in the crowd, within this known and comfortable world, you should be comfortable with that loneliness or else you might succumb to the loneliness. In such situation, substitutes won't work in long run. Being friends with the solitude will solve the problem forever. Friends... family are there for you. But it is important that you love yourself, your company the most. 

Fuckfuckfuck

What the fuck is going on ...shit shit shit...!!!!! Shit is all i can say shitty is all i can feel and shit is all i can think.
Actually you know what ?
I am in deeeep shit..so its OK to be this way..right ?
Bankonkkkkkkkkkkkkk
Hhh
No matter.. how much efforts you make, to turn things better.. how much you try..you will always always be like this only.
SCREWEEEDDDDD
this feeling gonna never leave you
Never everrrrrrrrr
Because you desrve this ...oh yea you deserve to feel this much miserable.
Afterall you have comitted crimes ..murders robbery ? aint you? ....you gangsta girl..!!hhhuh
Keep crying..
Thats the only thing you can do and you are good in it. Cozzzzzx
You have got only tears in your share in this life.
Misery is all you see and miserable is all you feel.
Your own life is fucked up thats totally great..superb fantastic..but....
Inspite of that you try to smile going out of the way..
Then bosss...
Hah
No no chance life will screw you more
And the more efforts you make more deep shit you are in so babes better keep crying...!!!!

♥

Love is thinking someone is beautiful even  though they are a huge mess. ♥

#My words

"Don’t wake me up,until its dawn again.
Don’t call my name i am not the same.
Selflove is gone long back..
The day i got drenched in rain. "

Breathing game

And there comes a day
She is all hopeless and glad
Soon this will be over
No longer needs to find reasons to smile
No longer needs to pretend
No more sufferings and cravings
Dreams and fantasies will come to an end.
There will be no more her
..to feel bad for,
No more her..to say “stay strong”
No shoes now fits her ..no scenario her eyes ever seen
World was worth watching you bitch ..her eyes has always scream.

Miracle, hopes kinda words are fading
No one there to put on blame..
But she is all fragile and tired now
Playing this breathe in & breathe out game.