I always wanted a letter for myself, from someone who could tell me about what life will be holding for me? A letter from GOD? (confidential one) or it could be from any wandering soul who could reveal it to me "what life will teach you", what is going to be happen in coming years..!!
But i never got any.. and today idea of writing a letter to myself clicked to my head.
NOW writing a letter to Future ME seems little pointless... neither i am crystal ball gazer nor i am any future teller.(they don't predict right anyway). so to the 8 year old me I write you this letter for you to know what to expect in next 14 years.
Dear 8 year old ME,
Hello Pretty little miss, I know you are disillusioned happy child right now,with not a worry in the world(except homework). Don't lose that innocence. I know you won't. Be always like this. I know you are sensitive and get hurt easily by just small harsh comments or little anger. But learn to laugh at yourself, don't be stuck up. Take a joke, when you should and give it right back when it crosses a line.Always listen to what your heart says,you won't regret that ever.Be trusting always, even after you get hurt again and again, trust someone new with all your heart. Others will tell you otherwise, they will say don't be so open. don't be so vulnerable. Don't listen, do your own thing. Speak your heart out, express what you feel. Don't be two faced,be diplomatic and non- committal, its a healthy way to deal with this world.
Your years are going to be happy. Sleep well, do your homework and eat healthy.Explore something new everyday. Make friends and watch f.r.i.e.n.d.s with them. It doesn't seem like you will. You will deplore that later ;-). Yo... i know you won't.Some amazing people await you in the years to come. Respect friendship always, its the glue that holds life together , you are nothing without them. I know you are blessed with annoying siblings,you are going to have good time with them. :P Don't worry.. !! :D
You're going to be hitting puberty ( Ask your sis what puberty is , go freak her :P or may be she will tell you by herself someday ;-) ) , face it and accept the changes that take place, physically and otherwise. Your body will change and so will your temperament , the pain may get bad sometimes but its making you stronger. Enjoy everything, every bit of your school days,even that s.s.t period after lunch break.I know you love to dance, Keep dancing.You are going to love acting too and the stage and the grandness of it all ,let it amaze you. Look at the world with those excited eyes and absorb it all . Embrace yourself, go in front of mirror flaunt that kareena's dialogue from KKKG "tumhe koi haqq nahi banta ..tum itni khoobsurat lago..not fairrr..!!" :D
Yess you stupid little brat.. you gonna do that,and you are good in it trust me ;-). You should take this seriously but you won't, the distracted child you are. Do it anyway. just for fun.Enjoy this phase of life, you're going to miss it way too much once its over.
There will come a day when you will start losing everything once you had one by one. Your school days, school friends, ability to dance, that sleepy sweet look every morning your mom see on your face.. You will be deprived from good night sleep, from your dreams, your plans for college life. Instead ,You will be visiting Hospitals and wishing it all will be over soon.Being a 17 year old adult...still.. it will scare the hell out of you to be in such place. You will be seeing yourself surrounded by disabled people and echoing inside "I don't belong to this place, i am not like you guys.i am different one.. i am special .. i will be out of this pitiable place soon."
But trust me you are going to manage well .. Doctors will tell you to take the best care of yourself by saying some Alientic words to you, that you have this disease called 'Scleroderma'.It will freak you out totally but you gonna face it all and will learn to live with it eventually, with smile of course. Life can be unfair sometime but that's no reason to give up on it.You will curse your life...WHY ME? But,there is not always a reason, Understand that the Life is not all butterflies and ponies , people face a lot of challenges on a daily basis , empathize. Don't get hurt by people who don't know the real you. They just know your name ,not your story..Learn to forgive, learn to take it easy. Be compassionate and equally passionate . You'll know the difference one day. Dream , and I can't stress it enough 'NEVER STOP DREAMING' . Don't ever assume , something will not happen for you.It always does , if you want it badly enough. You have a gift , its only going to take some time for you to know that.
You may feel you are not really enjoying what you are doing , or that life is a little directionless. Don't be scared. Keep at it , it will go well. Give everything your best shot always your best and nothing less.
Its okay to be sad , its okay to feel bad and its okay to cry sometimes , you don't have to pretend to be strong all the time.You will have friends to make you feel better.Go crazy with them, Read a lot , you will I know. Reading takes you to places you never thought you could go to. Believe in happy endings and fairies and Santa for as long as you can . Don't be practical ,be stupid sometimes.You gonna love FaceBook for many reasons.[Right now this word don't even exist but you will see dearo ;-)]. You will meet new people there, not exactly meet but you will experience something delicious ;-). Some people will leave , sometimes willingly , and sometimes without wanting to . Its a loss anyway. Mourn it but eventually let it go ,not them ,the loss . You know you cringe at the word death , even I do sometimes . Let's not talk about it .( typical. ) . Okay So pretty little miss in coming years you are going to be pretty little mess. But don't get disheartened that's how it is .. dream...scream,wish..hope,try..fail..and again give it a try, in the end you will learn 3 words i.e #Life Goes On# .. and .. Lastly ..always have a big heart and never let love leave it .:)
Love ME :)
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