Baby got stuck in a mess...?? No she is just in a bad mood... :)

:)
Sheh... I am so feeling like crying now..!
But that's not an option naa.... See.. 
I am a big girl now... and moreover i don't have a valid reason to cry -_-
Woahh...Valid reason..??
Are you kidding me??
I m so bloody stuck in a NoWhere land...NAA :/ 
Where i don't have any idea what i am exactly doing ( yes i am in my senses as i am typing this*)
i have lost interest in Facebook (temporarily)... i am tired of liking yes *LIKING* those drop dead gorgeous girls pictures.
Hmmm.. Did you see that pic of shonali she updated few hours back.. i am so jealous of her.
Ummhh.. yea i know i should not..... but yaar .... okay..! Grrrrr Bhaguuu i will see you...!! Huh... 
I miss you "My killer looks".. :'( :| :/ :|
       And that's not all... i have exam ahead ...and as usual i am gonna study last night ....yep i'll have one night stand with books just before exam. But still... that's so mee... i have this habit of taking tensions though i know i wont study at all..!! I don't know why i do this..??!!??
      I guess i know soo.......i know why i do this so sillyishly things.
Because..
It's been a while since i v laughed until i cried.
It's been a while since i have spoke until my jaw hurt.
It's been a while since i have smiled until it reached my eyes.
So.... I need a change ...
I want a new friend... Been a while since I took efforts to make one.
I want a new day.... to wake up to hope.
I want new flutters in my tummy at the sight of someone.
I want a new bollywood song to dance in my mind on its beats (m bored of disco deewane now -_-) 

                                       Don't we all love the new-ness...??  I do.. but i miss....!

Oh yes and I want new fingers (to type for my blog -_- old one hurts and they are slow).... Just this time...a lot more sleeker and longer... and STRAIGHT and FLEXIBLE ( hey GOD... you heard me right? :/ )

Okay..., now that you (if any :P) have survived through this... you'd be happy to know you just wasted 4 minutes reading absolute nothing.... Don't wince now. ..Ta-da ! :D

                                                   I am in a witty mood now and that means i've passed this bad mood phase.....woohuuu :D

My Share of Monsoon........!!

Whole night it was raining, no it was pouring cats and dogs. It was September mid and almost end of monsoons. I could hear the rain but didn't pay any attention as i have mind set.. "I am not allowed to drenched in rain" according to the doctors ofcourse. (No meaning of monsoons for me).

I was not able to sleep. And its not because i am insomniac its just i have 'internet pack' on my cell phone LOL..!!
All i could do was clicking 'HOME' again and again(on facbook obviously where else yew l find home to click?).. . and i started dreaming (yes my bed was trying to induce sleep in me by whispering lullaby and he succeeded :D)
Suddenly it started raining hard and heavy rain sound effects almost pulled me out from rapid eye movement sleep (I was dreaming). I feel so sorry for myself when a dream i am watching reaches only the interval and not the end.
I crumbled the thought of going back to bed, but then it was 4 a.m and ambience was lovely raining outside and ME bit warm inside cuddling my Teddy on my bed ( i js got this Teddy tow days back perfect tyming .. :P) Everything felt so dreamy dreamy kinda romantic that all i could think of was about t.v serial "Teri meri Love stories" (theme of  this show is short telifilms about love happened in monsoon) .
So, it was perfect time to watch [ missed almost all episodes f dis show even that karan singh grover aka armaan wala episode bhi :(]
                                                          "www.youtube.com"

Its always treat to your eyes to watch heartthrob karan <3 and that too in romantic scenes.

I felt great as if i am getting wet in rain as the background music was too good + i could actually smell rain that time.
             "Main to such main feeling le gayi yaar" (it was dialogue from the show :D)
Finished Watching it by 5:30 A.m . Then i Felt the urge to go outside. It had stopped raining but started to drizzle again. I opened the front door. I was thrilled to watch two tiny jet black frogs hopping near the stairs. I always felt 'eew' whenever I looked at these slimey creatures, but today somehow I found them cute. They were as tiny as an almond. With their tender baby limbs, they were enjoying their early baby-jumps in this world. They were playfully relishing the first rainy season of their lives. I bade good-bye to those little wonders and sat down near the Activa parked in porch area. I lost in my own thoughts and then ,I realized that the surrounding is greener than ever before. Plants just had a bath and now wearing their green bathrobes. Some tiny flowers were appearing proud of their ornaments made of tiny raindrops and leaves were feeling warm under their green shawls.

I din't have SLR camera to capture those tiny drops so Googled it  for my blog..:D

I started enjoying, I smiled as i saw those Periwnkle flowers blessed with purplish pinkish velvety petals. the delicate personality and cuteness of these flowers always stunned me . they are simple unlike roses they lack fragrance but i simply loved them.
                            I Enjoyed My Share Of Monsoon that morning. Monsoon was not meaningless for me anymore.
                     Mesmerized by this beautiful morning i texted all my Friends- "HAPPY MONSOON"...!! :D

And got replies----

Akanksha- Ab...?? oh same to you baby..bdw me too enjoyed monsoons alot ;-) [i kno hw she njyoed monsoons wd her boyfriend].

Panku- happy new year. :) may you blessed with a beautiful daughter. [*Giggle*]

Pluk-hmare yahan to dhoop hai ..!! [ :P :P <--my reaction]

Shail- Monsoon kab ka a kar chala gaya :P....!! [Again i chuckled =))]                          

                  And some Replied------- Same to you.!..........................?!?!?!?!?!

                                                    *-------------------------*

Wot d Fokk...!

"Wot d fokk.. my life sucks", all we cry,
Why rich is so rich, why only birds can fly !?

Its okay....i dunn take stress,
But i am nautt happy , my life is a fokking mess !

My hairs are damn rough, why my skin is freaking stiff,
"MOM !! where is my book, juss wanna jump off a high cliff ! :@"

Why on the earth it has to be me..?
Gawd ..!! what yew think i dunn have dreams..? x(

My nose is sharp, why yew snatched my smile, :'(
I want my "LOOKS" back...yew need some bribe ? -_-

How can i forget, uffff it's full of sh!tt,
medications all day longg, cant b normal for a bitt ! 

I cant fish, der is no sea..  

I cant roam, no one is free !

Mashhallah's beats makes me feel groove,
And the funny part is i cant even move :@

No.. what were yew trying to create some drama?
yew fokked my life ..and named it 'SCLERODERMA'..!

Ohh..!! wo wo wo and the drama does not end here,
Now main panga is my socialising fear... -_-

I need my friends i wanna hangout,
Are yew listening..? or should i shout it out loud.? O.o

Ahh..!! fine then challenge accepted with a *Tuff Look*
Beat that shit.. i'v got Facebook..! :D

Got few friends..all are gems..!!
But the sad part is ..can't meet them.:(

Real life pals are too sweet and precious..:)
The only thing i envy is they LOOK gorgeous x(

Partying isnt illeagel, y dunnn parents understand ?
and Mom please dunn buy my clothes, "PINKI" is not a brand :@

What do i do...? my pocket dunn even have a penny... :/
Do i will ever earn?.. wanna drink alcoholic fenny.. :P:P

Uff uff uff these small small tensions.. and big big issues,
Fokking hell, i dunn need anymore tissues..!!

Got more to say,but my eyes are olmost Red,
writing is fading too.. tym to hit the bed :D

"MY Life REALLY sucks", it is nautt a lie, :(
Avail options are-FUN, SMILE till i DIE !

Sayiaaara marjawaaan dozed off ....and....... NONSENSE happens...!!

It feels like for ages I haven't posted anything on my blog, and it feels depressing. 
(actually its been few days only). 
In reality  i was just missing myself on NET.
What made me deactivate my Facebook profile. 
no..what was i thinking..? to TOP the exams or what?.. by just simply deactivating my profile. whereas i am not at all studying.
Bullshit.
breaks after breaks and song after song no its like two songs were played almost zillions time today in my cellphone and finally i dozed off after listening Sayiaara (uff :/ lyrics se pyaar ho gya) and Marjawaan (shail y d hell yew made me listen to dis >.<) Yeaahh......!! these two lovely songs..:)
but but but.......... 
how can i sleep..?? ***[coz i dunn feel lyk studing at ol -_- its boring subject -_- who cares ..i just want to hookup the examiner ;-) if you know what i mean *wink wink* lol ...... huh.!!creepy mind....:X .. i meant to just get pAssing marks...:D but the question is ...HOW...? :O :'(]***
Shutuppp...!!! 
i have exam tomorrow 
and now i am hating this eeewww feeling in the pit of my stomach..(no my tummy is perfectly fine.. change your thinking... you sucker..LOL.)
but..
whats this feeling is..?
what you think.....?(hahhh..!! y am i asking..as if you bother)
ahh.....!!
now i guess its TENSION.............. 
                                    TENSION..................
                                                     TENSION......................
                                                                   *Lost* as if i am einstein ki BHATIJI ..........%^&**%$# 
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Hmmmmmmmm........ i should flip pages now .
its hightime girl... stop writing NONSENSE. and just go ..!!
                                 GO.....( one word more and you will b dead)..*what dead*.............?? 

LOL ha haha - as if keyboard will shoot me in my Head.. ..
                       okay okay going......... (you r so cruel sona i hate you) 
But i love you more. XoXo.... now go .......:) 

                           *GONE**HUMING**AGAIN*

                                     ♩ ♪ ♬

~~~~~~~~ Marjawwannn...marjawwaann...Marjaawaaan~~~~~~~~~