Ohh Balloons .. I love you..!

I fell in love with these balloons at first sight. (weird? i know i am such a jerk sometymes :D). This pic is from the page saanchi dedicated to me on facebook. Ahhh..!! well though i loved that ranbu wala pic also... what i was thinking that if... if only i will get these gubbaraz and one of the gubara will turn into ranbu? (tan-tadhaaan :* :/ :/ )  Arghh..!! okay not ranbu but then...? umm :/ someone i am looking for..? I am searching for a Balloon right? or may be not..?? Even i have lots of balloons.. some are best..some are bestiest..? then..??
                           Umm may be i am in search of the perfect balloon or maybe i am not. Maybe i don't want a balloon.......maybe i just want a marshmallow. Marshmallow is nice you see and and versatile also. You can have it as a topping or you can dip in chocolate sauce. But no God and his mysterious ways.... :/ Just when you are about to eat your marshmallow happily......... someone comes along and wants to be your balloon.. UHH :/  They come in varied shapes... sizes and colors (or i should say gender:P )but how do you decide and settle on the perfect balloon.Then there are also the problems on how to choose. Some just look pretty but are full of hot air. Some may seem perfect at first but as soon as you take your eyes off them ...they are gone. Some are the good looking ones .... those you always want to have but they are too pricey and when you do manage to get them you wish you hadn't invested so much into them.....How do you know that yes THIS is the balloon I want. This is the balloon for which I would want to give up all my rules..??YO ..!! Thats my best balloon..? 
                Balloons bring along with them alot of butterflies in your stomach. They ask you about your day and if you had lunch. Then they pretend to listen and actually sympathise with your rants about your problems..and the big and small disappointments life throws at you. They are cool like that , they listen . A balloon that smiles at your idiotic talks and actually thinks they are cute. A balloon that is the exact blend of funny and yet not cocky. A  balloon that you can kiss and cuddle with . A balloon that you  want to hug at the end of the day.A balloon that mocks you and fights with you those mushy fights you know. A balloon that calls you just to say it loves you. The balloon you spend hours texting. So nice no ?( i wonder how a blloon would loook like a cellphone in his hand :P nyways :D )  NO. Anyway the phase after finding the balloon is supposed to be bliss...Well so i hear (Or i experienced myself). Until ofcourse your balloon starts liking someone else more or you just lose the grip with which you were holding it...so trustingly thinking it would sit by you always.
             In the wide variety of balloons and in a world where everyone is chasing and searching for the perfect balloon...there are people who are sick of this race. Sick of the let downs .Sick of  their earlier balloons having gone through painful deaths at the end of cigarette butts, needles and sometimes your own sharp nails. A balloon that didn't last as long as it should have ..a balloon that lost its lustre way before time. A balloon that turned into airless rubber. Such balloon burst incidents put you off balloons for a while..a long while .All you want to do this sit in your room and not look at the world full of people that have already found their balloons. So you stop going out.. stop leaving your room and even if you have to..you walk with your eyes closed. You do not want to accidentally run into a cute pink balloon now ...do you ? 
    While you are carefully trying not to fall for any cute pink balloon on your way,( Eyes closed., right ? ) you still miss that one balloon The cute yellow balloon. A color you don't usually prefer ...............but then thats love isn't it .. You still have the rubber of the deflated balloon ....you still look at it sometimes and sigh so deeply but then you've moved on but not ready for new balloons yet..You are thinking what happened to this balloon..?. A balloon that made you truly happy.A balloon that stood apart from the rest ...Why his life was short?. And now Finding a new balloon starts sounding like a bad .. VERY bad idea. It  happens though..eventually. It  takes some time..:) Till then be Happy with those balloons you are already having. (like me ofcours ;-))

So.. this post was nothing ..but one of my nonsense... :P . i just want to tell you all my balloons.. i love you..!! :) 

PS : If the above post didn't make sense to you . Well. Okay. 
PPS : If you have't had enough of BALLOOOOOON in the last 5 mins . Here is some more . :P BALLOOOOOOOOOOOON :D aka GUBBAARRRAAAZ :P

And yes this post is a complete work of fiction :)

Anybody... oops i mean if any Balloon having any problem and wants to confront me..lemme tell you..your questions won't be entertained B-) 

Thankyou status of my 22nd birthday :P

                                  Birthdays r awesum......... nd Surprises r awesome-er :D 

But finnaly its over :( .. big wala thankyewww to ol for yewr wishes :) Facebuk notifcatns, messages , texts ,and fonecalls... made mi day :D 
not to forget MOF wishes too.. feels so goood :D (cover pic chnge krdo now weirdoz :P holi celebratnz ovr :/ :P)
Special wala thanx to few gr8 frndz :P
Su,Shail badtameez grls for srprize :D ..(though i hated dat a*****i idea f urz :( but loved wtevr miss chef cooked :P:)
Saanchi fo Special page dedication B-) (i loved ranbu wala post :* or kisi ko to yaad ee noi rha :'( :P )
Mi favrt retard Shail for PPT wt an idea :P (dis ladka hs not said a single nice thing to me since i've known him .. nd now js wen i had given up hope..:p tan-tadhaan :P)
nd nd... Rochsta too B-) (i kno m awesum :P thnx for telling :D)
nd nd to..
dose whu stayed up till 12 js to wish me in der sleepy voice :/ :P
spcl thnx to pluk for her 5 mins pelle wali wish :P
nd..
mum dad bhai n mona too .. but dat ws nt a srprize :P
ol n ol mi 22nd brthday went pretty well :P

P.S-its gud to celebrate birthdays non chalantly :/ but not evrytym :/ :P.. lookin frwrd for some more fun :P anku,rht :P :P

 Ariel Rumana and 8 others.

Out Of Boredom

Noh.........!! i just can't write what i am feeling inside. Because i know this is wrong. I don't have any right on this earth to feel this way. But its happening to me and i can't help it. No, i mean i can.. its just i don't want to..........?!?!?!?!?[(i know i don't want to :'( ]

                    

                      Phewwww........ hmmm, why the hell its happening to me, i should concentrate on other things.(there is a lot to think about the well being of this world O_o ... ? uhmm ok i mean i have novels,movies.music,health plus its my birthday next week.. ohh.. I was here for something else) ...Yeah,i was about to write a post about my birthday wishes but see here i am typing stupidly whatever is on my mind. Mind?.. i know i am the stupidest girl..But god why na? why can't you make things go nicely -just the way i like, the way i think, the way i imagine.?!?!?! (brmmmmmmmmm  i am still on the same track gosh :|)

                        I know every-time that I write a post, I dart stacks of assurances that I'm gonna continue writing then on etc.. And each time I fade away without any news.. (I wonder if anyone even takes notice of it! :/)

                        

                       You know what.. when i think about my blog (mostly when I cannot fall asleep).. Hatching up word-by-word what I'd write next, all in my mind.. Wondering if all this could directly get posted in the blog (all from my mind!), without me actually having to slog through the keyboard and trying to make it look appealing (only to my eyes!).. Fancying if web-developers would ever design such an app that will enable me to have soo many posts with no efforts at all?? Just my imagination my thoughts my feelings and all this would change into beautiful words in a blip..And then my intelligence would give way to self-realization.. That, "Nahi, kabhi nahi banayenge aisi app. Pehle hi kam jhelti hai kya duniya mujhe, ki aur itne posts kar saku koi chahega??!! :O " Mean world..! >:(

                             
And... All of a sudden I feel so side-tracked.. Was I even there on the track?? 'Cause I have absolutely no idea why am I writing this post..?

                              
                              -Is it? what they call mental disorder? :o (no it can't be possibly,  am perfectly fine. it was just minor knee cramp few hours back ..or whatever it was.. surely it was not in my brain. O_o..coz i've had pain in my knee O_o * noh nah i never believed boys when they say 'girls ka dimag ghutno main hota hai" :| NAhhhh!!! )

                               
                             -Is it for me to get bored of my own blabbering and fall asleep?? (O_o Well, this is some food for thought!)  

                                
No wonder if you're sleepy..! You sustained it soo far?? Gosh! People these days, i tell you, have bumper leisure time..:P

Me,..silly kudi.., who won't sleep and write such posts; and You, Keen Audience, who would diligently entertain such posts..! :)

M glad to have such "velle" onlookers..! :)
You inspire me to write moree...! :p 

                                and You know i LOUV you... ;-)

                                                                Ta-da ....! :)

Kohl

She applied Kajal everyday.
Religiously.
Kajal was a part of her.
Dark, deep Kajal. And it was always black.
Kajal made her eyes even more mysterious, more deep.
Sometimes it made her look like a bitch.
Sometimes it made her poet's muse.
And today if some people really think she is becoming "Bitch Mode ON" kinda girl,
its doesn't affect her.
Let her be... 
.................................................................
----------------------------------
                                 Today, her kajal was smudged all over her face.
                                        Kajal didn't stay back with her eyes today.

A Happy Heart says Thankyou GOD :)

I feel special .. :)

****

Oh God! We thank you,

for what you gave us,

bless our parents,bless our teachers,

bless our country,

and our Indo german Public school.!!

With a weird tone we used to offer this prayer at school times every morning in assembly.School times probably the best time of everyone's life. As time passed no school, no prayers? Not really ....I do, pray to god but mostly with heavy heart in difficult times.When i am feeling low or i am in some trouble.But right now i am happy and,

I have this feeling inside me that i should say thanx to GoD with this happy heart. :) 

what I feel often is that we only remember god when we need that comfort, when we need god to heal us.To me that is like being friends with someone, but only spending time with them when you need them. I find it so sad that we only remember him only in our times of emotional instability or some trouble and curse him for giving us this life full of shit. 

But in our blissful days we forget to say even a simple thanx to him.

So,

Today Bhagwan ji :) I say, thankyou for everything.
Thankyou God for allowing me to sing in my melodious voice(yes for me its melodious:P)

Thankyou God for allowing me to share my emotions through words.(yes my relationship with words is beautiful, and is strengthening day by day :) )

Thank You God for creating the wonderful gift of sleep.( in the way it rejuvenates me, clears my mind and and and i enjoy it :P)

Thank you for waking me up early today.( even though it was by alarm but i enjoyed my alarm tone gulabi aankhein. ;-) :P )

Thankyou for that courage and that good feeling today.(I am happier then ever :P)

and and and

Thank You for the foods You created, all the different flavors.(I am a big time chatori you know :P)

 Thank you for the people you have placed in my life!(I love all and each of them :) my friends :* my family:) my dear ones <3 )

In many ways i thankyou GoD for giving me this life.I may cry sometimes and say rubbish things and you know  how stupidishly silly things i do( not gonna mention them ever ;-) :P secret between me and god) 

thankyou for forgiving all of them and loving me even though I fail You so much, even in terms of love. :|

I can say thankyou for google,mobile phones and for a never ending list but that would consume so much time..?!?!?!..  oh yes thanx for this pink watch too.i love it <3 and it looks good on my wrist :)

Thank you God for everything. I allow so many crazy things to upset my life. Thank you for always being there for me,and making me feel this much special i am feeling right now. :) <3 :)

Keep Showering your love and blessings on me and my loved ones.And yess keep working on your sweet plans for me :P

With Lots of Love,

Your Special child M3 :)

P.S-this post is not a maska to GoD.*Ranting to myself* -_-.

A birthday wish ...!

"Ki Hui"?
el o el.... seriously LoL happened today when i called her at 1:21 a.m and her first words as she picked the call were "tu bhool gyi thi na?" I never thought i will forget her birthday. How could i ?...i was the only one who knew how much she is obsessed with her birthday and waiting for this day. :S .and I, me, myself dint wish her on time whereas i was chatting with her till 12:30 a.m. (amazng na? i know ;))..it should be the birthday girl who would be getting birthday bumps but here... its me who almost got mini attack when i realised i missed it :)
Very next moment i jumped on pc and logged in to facebook.where i see everyone has already wished her with cute pix and warm words.(reason to upset- could not complete that ritual of MoF of writing birthday post. Saanchi is the one who writes her friends a letter each year on their birthday and sometimes even otherwise to let them know how awesome they are , they are not actually:p. But she makes them feel like they are..well my birthday is coming too *smilezzz* ). With my fucked up keyboard i tried to write a birthday post and i couldn't . Then i asked shail (who was equaly upset as me..for obvious reason :p) to write a post for me and he is such a darlinn.he agreed..:D But my mind refused to think of anything at that crazy moment and ended up with adha-adhura wish :/
Its your birthday and i have no idea how to make my wish special to you.
All the weird ideas my mind could think of i gave up and decided to write a post for you here on my blog.:D You were upset na by not seeing your name with pluk,shail,panku in My Share of Monsoon...!! post... now see here this whole post is dedicated you..:P :D...tan-dhaaaaaaa..:p
Its her birthday.. Saanchi.. 

one of the recipient in my phonebook to whom i text almost everything nonsense -from which colour pair of shoes i should pick to kisine seeti maari tujhe dekh k*? kinda talks.:p
Well This pretty thing Saanchi.... i love her( it sounds good anywhere ) :D

She is someone I have never met in person but someone whose closer to me than people that see me everyday.
She laugh at my jokes <3
She gets me.
Like,seriously :)
She is an amazing listener she is also the one i go for advice.
(I'm sorry I don't know the difference between 'Advice' and 'Advise')
She is the "Always-there-for-you" friend

She keeps the group together <3
Me and Pluk 've had the most insane talks with her.The drama we use to do in our inbox will always be very special to me my jiggerypoo :p I MISS US :( the old us.
Thank you for everything you have given me, for accepting me as your friend with my glitch in the head and all that :P
Thankyou for making me feel smart at times when you act like dumbo :p
Being friends with you was as easy as  1..2..3 . Ju are one of the best thing that has been happend to me this year:p
                                    You and Sanchayita Sarkar
Facebook friends since January
                             to  FOREVER .
                                              I can just hope you will be my friend forever and this drifting apart wali gandi feeling wont ever come between us.
                                  So birthday girl i didn't know what else i could have done to wish you a Happy Birthday and i hope this is OK. Guess We made your birthday special ... atleast worth remembering by this *o teri me kaise bhool gyi* thing.
isn't it? :p

I am not that much crazy Hannah Montana fan i used to be in class 12th :p.. but in many ways, i still love this song... i love the lyrics and the way she sings it... and this song would express it better what i wanted to say :)

Happyyyy Birthday hamari madonaa...:p
Go get talli...:p eat cake ..and and this diwali lets celebrate saanchiz birthday....?!?!?!?

:O... Ooops...Lub dher sara :) :p

P.S- this post took 2 hrs to complete with tortoise chaal.plz bahao some khushi k aansu now :'(.

Because It Makes Me Happy.........! \m/

Very Very Happy Right NOW.....and reason even i don't know.Just feeling ecstatic.

So i thought i should make a list of the things that make ME super duper HAPPY :D

• Writing down a post for my blog makes me happy
• Making lists makes me happy
• The smell of new books makes me happy  
• Love stories with happy ending makes me happy
• Babies and their innocence make me happy
• Looking at my baby pictures makes me happy
• Having heartful chat with besties make me happy
• A song with beautiful lyrics makes me happy
• Lots of colors make me happy
• Entering a good smelling shop and getting high on the smell makes me happy =)
• Listening dance numbers with full volume makes me happy
• Waking up and remembering a good dream makes me happy
• Fantasizing myself as heroine makes me happy
• When someone pays for me it makes me happy ( yeah i'm a girl ..get over it )
• Singing in the worst voice ever makes me happy
• Meeting someone for the first time and getting along with them makes me happy
• Finishing a good book makes me happy
• Watching a nice movie makes me happy
• American movies/t.v serials makes me happy
• Cooking for myself makes me happy(though i can't ... and i don't :P)
• Finishing a nice drawing makes me happy
• Balloons make me happy
• Walking into a toy store makes me happy
• Having a long tiring day but it being totally worth it makes me happy 
• Waking up early without an alarm clock makes me happy
• Being the centre of attention sometimes makes me happy
• Getting a comment on my status makes me happy :D ;)
• Clicking nice pictures makes me happy
• Shopping for anything actually makes me happy
• Opening gift wraps makes me happy
• Shiny things make me happy ( yess i turned 4 last week...........huh :P )
• When someone appreciates me it makes me happy. (it gives me more high than vodka can give to anyone :P)
• Reaching just on time for exercise make me happy.
• Flowers make me happy
• Ice cream make me happy.

Rest of the things i will update laterz ;-) .......as of now i am happy..i feel great.....i am done with my post. :D ta-da :D :)